Incidents and accidents, hints and allegations

IMG_0971.JPGToday has been the final day of the Farewell Tour. My last shift on the Eastern Front has brought lots of handshakes and well-wishes. Who knows when I’ll be back.

Every shift is somehow memorable, but this one has had compartment doors opening at inopportune times, a minor crash, and a surprisingly nice interaction with one of our regular patients. I may have my doubts about our EMS system in general and my career in particular, but I still enjoy this job.

Now it’s time to hand over the keys for a while.

“Operations, this is Medic 9. We’ve been relieved. Good night and God bless.”

And there’s a cold beer waiting with my name on it.

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Author’s note: I originally penned this on my phone during the last hour of Wednesday’s shift. I held it back because I felt it needed work. After a few days’ reflection, I’ve decided to let it stand.

Medic 6

I sit enjoying the warm solstice evening, reading a good book in the garage. The city has had no love for us today.

A reported diabetic who only wanted a cup of coffee. A morbidly obese patient who called 911 looking for a wheelchair van.

A reported overdose in a fast food bathroom. I haven’t done a good OD in a bathroom in ages. Still haven’t.

And a truck swap. I hate swapping trucks. It never feels right for the rest of the shift.

There are forces in motion in my life; things begun long ago and now largely beyond my control. I don’t yet know where they will lead me or how I feel about them, but their effect is tectonic. Large shifts will occur.

A truck swap. An old friend from my past has returned. Medic 6 looms over my right shoulder, a ghost of good times past. We started our careers together or near enough as to make no difference; me the new paramedic and her the new transfer truck. Now she sits here reassuringly, the faithful steed peeking out of its stall.

My days in this city and indeed this job may be numbered, but tonight I get to spend them with an old friend.

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Funny thing about firemen. . .

Eighty-Two to Ancestral Hometown Fire Alarm, advise responding units I can confirm smoke showing on Near Horizon Mountain. It looks like it’s somewhere on the northeast shoulder.”

Received Eighty-Two. Fire Alarm to all AHFD units, Rescue 82 confirms smoke showing at that location.”

My sister lowered her binoculars. Even without their aid, the column of smoke on the other side of the valley was visible from her deck. This would be interesting, as the fire appeared to be located in an inaccessible area on the side of the mountain, and the AHFD crews had just returned from a mill fire in neighboring Little Bigtown.

As Eighty-Two began to gather her EMS gear, Deputy Dad and I made it clear we weren’t going to be left behind. Even though we were two states away from our district, we would find some useful support function. If I was reduced to handing out bottled water in the rehab sector, I could still do something valuable.

The trek across the valley, around Near Horizon Mountain, and then as far up the dirt road as possible seemed to take forever. AHFD units confirmed there was a wildfire on the mountain and had begun calling for additional assistance. With the ongoing mill fire, backup would be coming from far afield.

We set up our rehab sector in a field, and I kicked myself for forgetting my camera. Rural fire departments keep some strange vehicles around specifically for operating in the woods. Today’s odd mix of companies meant there were apparatus present I’d never seen before and might never see again.

At the tree line sat one of my favorite local engines, a 1970′s Chevrolet truck with an old oil tank and plywood compartments, all painted in Chevy Engine Orange. At one time this amazing piece of Yankee ingenuity had been the pride and joy of its company, attending all the local parades. (It always left me wondering what the apparatus left behind looked like.) The Chevy was being supplied by a constant stream of tankers. Most were ex-military 6×6 trucks, although a couple old oil trucks and one modern Mack joined the mix. One of the AHFD engines sat alone at the side of the road, its crew already deep in the woods. A single hose line snaked from the orange Chevy, over a stone wall, and up what was most likely a snowmobile trail.

Soon came the radio call everyone dreads: “’Firefighter down!” The hot summer day, the mill fire, and the hike up a mountain had converged in disaster. The on-duty Rescue crew commandeered an ATV to carry their gear and started off up the trail. Eighty-two, Deputy Dad, and I set off after them on foot.


The single hose line, our only clue to our destination, wound up the rough trail. In winter this would be a major snowmobile route, but right now it was an eight-foot wide rocky path. We soon caught and passed the ATV. Though nearing retirement, Deputy Dad led the party up the trail with a purpose. None of us will ever hike the Appalachian Trail, but many summer hikes in the White Mountains left us in better shape than the pursuing EMTs.


Much to our surprise, over 1000 feet up the trail, we rounded a corner and found another fire engine. An intrepid 6×6 driver had forced his steed as far into the woods as possible, finally stopping where the trail narrowed and crossed another stone wall. My beloved Chevy far below was in fact merely shifting water uphill to the front lines, not directly supplying the battle.


The three of us plunged onward, not yet finding the fire or the injured firefighter. Radio messages placed him above and ahead of us. Eventually we came within earshot of the working crews, but still could not see them. We had veered off course, placing the firefighter (and the fire) below us and to our left. Thankfully by this time the fire was under control. I’ve never been uphill from a wildfire, and I have no desire to start now.


We descended to the fire line, to find a firefighter suffering from heat exhaustion. Eighty-Two began ALS care, while I assisted with BLS and Deputy Dad fulfilled the all-important role of IV pole. Soon the rest of the crew arrived, and we began the long carry back down the mountain into the dusk.



Mandatory retirement caught up with Deputy Dad this July. The department honored him with a retirement party last weekend. As he puts it, he’s going ‘happily but not willingly’ after 48 years in the fire service.


Dad actually started chasing fires on his bicycle at age 16, in a time when an eager teenager was welcome and appreciated on the rural fireground. I’m willing to spot him those two unofficial years and call it an even half century.


“Funny thing about firemen: day and night, they’re always firemen.” – Ronald the Arsonist, ‘Backdraft’

Another Tuesday

It’s a beautiful late summer Tuesday morning. Good Friend and I finish our checklists and head out for bagels in the A9. GF’s news pager buzzes. He ‘harrumphs’ and hands it to me.
A plane has flown into the World Trade Center.

We assume it must be some idiotic private pilot with a Cessna, who somehow couldn’t see the gigantic building looming in front of him. Another customer in line behind us says, “No, I heard it was a DC-3.”

A DC-3?? Are there any of those still flying in metro New York?

Both of us are firefighters and history buffs, and our conversation drifts to the bomber which struck the Empire State Building in 1945.
Soon we find out the truth.


We arrive at Local Suburban Hospital for the transfer. We catch the replay of the second plane striking the towers on the TV in the ER waiting room. No one knows what is going on, but fear, shock, and anger begin to compete for dominance.

Being in public safety, our minds are racing in two directions: the brothers in NYC are going to have a bad day; and will it spill over into our little metropolitan area? Along with the shock, we must plan.

And there are still patients to transport.


We both find time to call home. The calls serve no rational purpose, but they allow us to touch our families. Yes, yes, we’re fine. No, I don’t know anything more than you do. Gotta go, stay safe, call if you need anything from us.


The order comes to fuel up. We’re not sure how big this may get, and we need to be ready. Rumors are drifting in about the Pentagon, a plane crash in PA; planes headed for the Capitol, the White House, the Sears Tower in Chicago, the Prudential and Hancock in Boston.


We’re headed for Local Dialysis Facility when we hear the news of the first tower falling. We now know that hundreds of our brothers have been murdered; we don’t know how many or by whom.
We hover in the waiting room at LDF and watch the second tower burn. And fall. I distinctly remember the TV tower wobbling just before it went.


The afternoon is a blur. We huddle around the TV, watching events unfold. The collapse of WTC 7 is anticlimactic; a side show. Who would have ever thought that watching a 47 story building fall would be a minor memory from any day?


We go down to the beach for a late dinner. Sin City is within sight of a major international airport; everything is quiet. Even the traffic is sparse and muted.

We stand in the parking lot for a long while, munching fried goodies and staring out to sea. We can hear the sound of a pair of F-15s flying patrol off the coast. If we stare long enough, we can eventually see one of them eclipse a star as it orbits in search of something, anything, to shoot at.


Eight years on now, the scenes are still vivid in my mind. The images of the attack share memory with the images of friends, family, and co-workers. I still can’t watch aircraft on low approach to Big City International Airport without a chill going down my spine.

2974 people were murdered on 9/11/01. 343 were my brother firefighters. Others were soldiers, medics, and police officers, and all were simply living their daily lives.

I have a new concern this year, however. How do I explain this to a school age child? She has no memory of these events, and I fear her reaction will be similar to my reaction to the Kennedy assassination. To me 9/11 is a traumatic event; to her it will be history.

I will never forget, but will she ever understand? And do I want her to?

Self indulgence


In the description of this blog, I refer to myself as a ‘firefighter, paramedic, train buff, family man.’ Most of my inspired writing lately has been fire/EMS related.

A bit of self-indulgence, if you would: Beth began school today. Real, yellow-bus, lunch-in-a-big-room SCHOOL. I’m so proud.
Where did all the time go? It seems like not long ago I was a rookie Lt/EMT with a new wife. Now the marriage is in double-digits and the child is in school.
And I wouldn’t change a minute of it.

The Show Must Go On

“We’ve got a fire on the stage!” I tore from the back of the Performing Arts office, sprinting for the Stage Right doors.

I grew up in a firehouse. I always knew someday I’d be not only a firefighter, but that special breed above all else, a ROWLEY firefighter. Episodes of ‘Emergency!’ piqued my interest and stealthily indoctrinated me with the value of EMS. Dad would leave at all hours of the day or night, answering box alarms sounded on the air horn in the center of town. He kept his turnout gear at the top of the back stairs, which he only used when going to fire calls. In later years we had an extension of the Red Base, a pre-911 fire department party-line emergency phone. I could listen in on the dispatchers as the emergencies happened! We could even sound the ‘fire whistle’ from our front hall, although I never succumbed to the temptation.

I used to attend drills on Sunday morning with Dad, learning all I could. I remember checking equipment; my specialty was the batteries in the flashlights. I have one vivid memory of sitting on top of the engine during a pump drill, guiding the deck gun and using it to blast the bark off dead trees.

I don’t exactly remember my first emergency call. I have one vague memory of sitting in the cab of Engine 7′s 1947 Howe on a flooding/service call. That truck was sold in 1980, so I was still pre-teen.

I remember my first call as a driver, and my first call as a Lieutenant.

On the medical side, I remember my first day on the ambulance as an EMT. We did dialysis runs all day long. First call as a newly-minted paramedic: an electrocution. I remember my first cardiac arrest, but that’s a subject for another post. I remember my first cardiac arrest SAVE, which should be yet another post. I remember my first fatal crash, and the first time I used the Jaws of Life.

First emergency, though, ummmmm. . .

First really big fire? Malden Mills, December 10, 1995. I doubt I’ll ever see another like that; it’s a story to tell the grandkids when I have some.

Very first emergency, uhhh. . .

As I rounded the corner, I could see my best friend approaching from Stage Left with a dry chemical extinguisher. He let loose on the small fire, barely missing me in his zeal. The charred remains of a smoke machine sat on the smoldering carpet on the stage riser.


While he unplugged the smoking hulk, I strode to center stage and waved for the sound man to turn up my microphone. I politely asked the milling crowd, waiting for intermission to end and the show to resume, to evacuate the auditorium. They didn’t hear a word, as our sound man had missed the cue.


Returning to the seat of the fire, we peeled back the carpet and checked for extension. Fortunately there was none.


I returned to the office to look up the phone number for the local fire company. This was pre-911 in our area, and it wasn’t a real emergency anyway. Just a little smoke, now.


When the first engine arrived, the Captain was irate we hadn’t pulled the box. We saw no need – the fire was out. What’s a little smoke?


The engine company inspected our work, evacuated the smoke, condemned our smoke machine, and stomped out. Dress rehearsal was over.


The date was March 16, 1989; second Thursday of the month and the night I was appointed to the Rowley Fire Department.

Reciprocation, and perspective

This morning I’ve received my first official outside link. Kal over at TraumaQueen.net accepted my submission for this month’s edition of the Handover Blog Carnival. Read the post, and check out what some other great EMS bloggers are doing. From there you can follow the links to past monthly editions and see some of my inspiration.

It feels wonderful. I imagine this must be somewhat like getting your first magazine article published. Now people other than family members and those looking to install an iPod in their GMC will see my little blog. (You’d be amazed how many hits that one gets.)
In housekeeping notes, for my longer-term readers I hope you enjoy the new look. It was just installed last night.
And finally some notes on perspective for any new readers. I’ve been in EMS for 10 years and the fire service for 20. I’ve served on a fire company in a rural town which is transitioning to a suburban bedroom community. I’ve worked for two private ambulance companies in the neighboring metropolitan area, serving as both an EMT and Paramedic, doing 911/emergency work and routine transfers. What this all means is that stories from my career and life will be told from varied perspectives as a firefighter/lieutenant/EMT/Paramedic riding the Engine/Ladder/Ambulance in a rural/suburban/metro area. Got it? Good. Enjoy.

Inn at Ellis River

Stayed here for a couple nights away for our anniversary. We hiked down Canon Mtn via the Kinsman Ridge trail and got really beat up. The trail was in horrid shape; I don’t know if it’s from the recent bad weather or just hard use. I guess there’s a reason they recommend you hike UP and ride the tram DOWN. Live and learn. It made us appreciate the Jacuzzi in our room, though.

We loved the Inn so much we’re going back for Ericka’s birthday.

19 years. . .

As I was searching for a topic to start this blog, it occurred to me that last month marked 19 years on the fire department for me. In that time I’ve seen 3 chiefs, and only 2 full-time firefighters. I’ve seen 3 engines come, and 3 go. I’m on my third ladder truck.

I’ve saved a few lives, and I’ve lost (or at least been too late to save) a few others. I’ve seen one big mill fire a few years ago; one to tell the grandkids about. I’ve won commendations, and I’ve seen lots of people come and go.

I’ve seen my small suburban volunteer FD evolve from 100 runs per year to a combination department doing over 600. EMS has taken over half of what we do. We now have the technology to do things we only saw on TV years ago.

No idea where this is going, but sometimes it’s interesting to look back